let it be, naturally

it is annoying, when I saw you were online and I didn't have the strength just for saying Hi... It's frustrating when I don't have more space to think about something else but you. What is the definition of love? Is my heart really going to you or it is just a feeling-of-loosing-friend? I don't know. I just can't stop my self to think about you. It will be truly embarrassing if you don't feel it in the same way with me. Should I open my heart, my eyes, and telling my brain to close all the way to think about you as my puzzle... Is that really the thing I've to do? Do I have to? Then how do I know if I've took the right choice... Who the heck will guarantee me if I wouldn't be regretful with this decision...