Kamis, 09 Mei 2013

sequence

What if all that happened in your life were all lies. What if the life you had today, the peoples you used to talk were all nothing. They don't have any connection with you, or even worse they never existed. What if all these things that matters you, the thing that revolves around you, the peoples you are clinging to, all were a dream. These all were only a part of a dream. You are only somebody who is suffering coma and have had a long long dream.
If it was true, I am afraid I can not take that. I am afraid I choose to stay in coma instead.
Sometimes, when you really attached to certain thing, whether it's person, thing or relationship, it will be hard to be separated from them. To accept that finally they will not be included in your life anymore.
To let them go.
It was hard to imagine what my life could be without one person I love and respect gone. For my self being honest, I never imagine that. Yes it is hard, those concatenation of my life changing. But I finally have my self over it. I am okay and being ready to face my next destiny.
Sometimes, it is hard to accept the truth. It is really terrifying to picture that what I have been trough, all the relationship I had with all my bestfriends, my Mother, my Brother, and my loved one were nothing. I mean, we do not sit at the same boat, we do not cross the same sea. They don't feel the feeling the way I do. They can not understand. No, I love them and yes maybe they like being with me. If they were not, how could they stay. But, sometimes being together doesn't meaning always has the same rhythm in understanding each other. Everytime.
I try to comprehend, I will look closely what matters and fix what bothers. 
For the ones I love, I will, and if it doesn't work out...so it is the time for accepting.
To let them go.