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alhamdulillah akhirnya event-nya bisa jadi dan sukses XD XD XD setelah deg deg kan berhari-hari XD XD galau menunggu kepastian dan lain lain akhirnya, @EKSPOSE survive, bisa liat nama Psikologi Undip di jalan jalan :') uncountable terima kasih setelah disupport banyak orang, acara lancar, ketemu artis :p puas nyayi (tereak tereak) dideket panggung :D alhamdulillah :)))

song this day

today, Day 2 of Ekspose Psychology @ GOR Satria

in order to promote the last event from Ekspose-Inauguration Night ft Sheila On 7, the committee played songs sang by Sheila On 7. They played many songs and I couldn't recognize most them cause it was too noisy. You know, they were many people out there and they were talked to each other. But it was one song I could hear its lyric clearly, I didn't know whether it was because less noise or the committee turn up the volume so everyone could could hear the song more. It was "Seberapa Pantas" by Sheila On 7. This song is a part of the second album titled 07 Des, Seberapa Pantas was a big hits that time and it gets a hit for me too. Ke Ke. Now, download here and listen to this then find the hit. :3

"Seberapa Pantas" - Sheila On 7

seberapa pantaskah kau untuk kau tunggu
cukup indahkah dirimu untuk slalu kunantikan
mampukah kau hadir dalam setiap mimpi buruku
mampukah kita bertahan disaat kita jauh

seberapa hebat kau untuk kubanggakan
cukup tangguhkah dirimu untuk slalu kuandalkan
mampukah kau bertahan dengan hidupku yang malang
sanggupkah kau meyakinkan disaat aku bimbang

celakanya hanya kaulah yang benar benar aku tunggu
hanya kaulah yang benar benar memahamiku
kau pergi dan hilang kemanapun kau suka

celakanya hanya kaulah yang pantas untuk kubanggakan
hanya kaulah yang sanggup untuk aku andalkan
diantara beri aku slalu menantimu

mungkin kini kau tlah menghilang tanpa jejak
mengubur semua indah kenangan...
tapi aku slalu menunggumu disini
bila saja kau berubah pikiran

and, hey YOU in the corner of somewhere, badly want to see you and wish me luck!

for those time which you can't guarantee, whether it'll be good or bad one. There is no living creature in this universe could predict what will happen in our life. Happiness and sadness. Hope and no-hopes. Loved or to be loved. To trust or to be trusted. Faith and lies. Laugh and tears. All human's gestures portraying several thing from inside. Conducted by heart insisting human's original desire and lead by brain considering from logical corner. Sometime obsession drives it all the way and make these teamwork fail. When you can't distinguish the time you're living now and the memories you want it back, complaining would be the best response. Comparing is what's right on your brain. People argumentation will be something important if it comes from the significant others. Nor, when it really hurt your pride you're gonna scold the one hurt you. With or without logical reason. No judging. These were only a short conclusion after observing several sides in an unyu place :D

You know, it's a bit annoying when comparing and questioning for something that no one knows exactly what the answer is. Sometimes I just wanna let these tears come. Just wanna say something crazy out loud.. ;-,-; Well, it only 7days left to Inauguration Night for Ekspose. I hope from now on every Ekspose's event will done right and success and no one complaining and comparing to another. Wish me, my friends, and these events luck!

memoirs of baksos

For some reasons I remember my baksos (spcial service) when i was in first grade of highschool. it was the first time i lived in boarding house, without my mom or familiar friend. Well, I had it one but she was in different school and she was also busy with her own business. Still felt alone. When it came to baksos time, i was getting close with my boarding house mate, Sari. We came along all the way together until class diversion separated us. (apa ini bahasanya) The moment while almost my new friend were visited by their parent and no one visited me, was the worst moment I ever felt. I finally realized My Mom's thing--she always came or sent me some foods to me when I had a camp or boy scout--was precious thing and I was want her so baad to visit me. I held my cry and when to my all-the-way-friend Sari, and shared about our activities that day and our feeling to our family. In the night, classic thing, I had a feeling if something's gonna happen in the middle of the night so I wore my complete uniform even my shoes and slept on the edge of the camp. No blanket, no loosen hair, I had my veil completed too. XD and I was right, it hasn't 3 hours we were sleeping and the sunbae's woke us up to line up, jurit malam and lined up again for some absurd punishment. Yesterday in my college activities, I was a bit surprised when my juniors were still enthusiastic while I always could successfully sleeping in my middle-night-activities. L.O.L.

But it was not the end, I got the real worst feeling when I came back from my baksos. While Sari's truck had arrived some time ago and my truck was the last, so of course she had have back to our boarding house. It means I had to carry on my whole stuffs alone. I havent got a close friend yet. No one accompanied me, no one'll help me, No one cared about me and no one remember my name. There's was no my home maid who waited me, who'll carried my big-bag, my small-bag, my bucket, and my mat. I had no one who waited me. That's what I was thinking. Once again, I held my throat not to say a single word, afraid it was a sign for me crying. I looked everywhere and re-convinced my self that there was really no one waited for me and it's time to go home. Go. Home. There was no home, it was just a boarding house. A strange-small room you share with someone else, and you could do anything you want cus there is no one will complaining about except your room-mates, no Mom, no Ibob, no maid. It's all by your self. Once again, I strongly held my throat to breathe more carefully. Haha.
aouuh, it was the worst feeling i ever felt to my home. hope i wont get that again. :'D

Pembagian Tugas

dan karena gak selamanya saya bisa memikirkan semua permasalahan dengan otak. maka terkadang saya ajukan hati saya untuk unjuk kebolehan dalam memecahkan masalah. dan karena saya tidak sempurna, kesalahan dalam menempatkan tugas siapa dipecahkan siapa pun terjadi dan itu tidak bisa dihindari. membuat kalimat efektif juga bukan merupakan keahlian saya, jadi perulangan kata yang tidak efisien mungkin saja dapat terjadi. saya juga bukan orang yang terlalu keras sehingga pembicaraan yang sederhana tidak mampu melukai ego dan perasaan saya. tetapi saya juga kurang cerdas kalau diminta mengartikan sesuatu dengan sudut pandang yang terlalu lebar. mata saya bisa sakit. tidak pernah sekalipun terinterpretasi di kepala tentang ketidakpedulian kepada keadaan sekitar. saya hanya lebih memilih diam dan memperhatikan.
setiap tawa yang saya berikan bukan juga palsu dan dibuat. sebenarnya ya dibuat. tapi saya membuat dengan ketulusan dan kesepakatan yang sah dari kepala dan hati saya. tidak ingin juga saya menjadi orang lain. pun saya masih sering mencari saya yang seperti apa yang tengah diingini. bukan. bukannya tidak suka. hanya tidak nyaman dengan ketidak tahuan sehingga muncul banyak pertanyaan. maaf kalau sampai membuat disalah artikan. saya juga manusia biasa, sering plin plan. kalau kemarin hanya diam, bukannya lupa tapi ada juga takut. saya takut yang saya kenal menghilang. dan nyatanya memang ada menghilang. jadi ada yang mengganggu dipikiran saya. lagi lagi ini karena pembagian tugas yang tidak benar. baik maaf. maaf atas ketidaknyamanan yang saya timbulkan.